Understanding the Hidden Struggles of Autistic Adults
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Chapter 1: The Invisible Challenges
Many adults, particularly those who are high-functioning or belong to underrepresented groups, often navigate life without a formal autism diagnosis. As someone born in the 90s and identifying as a person of color, I spent my twenties grappling with persistent sensory and communication issues, trying to understand their origins. The rise of autism awareness on social media has led many, including myself, to seek diagnoses later in life. It wasn’t until I turned 27 that my therapist suggested I explore the possibility of autism, prompting me to reach out to my doctor for an assessment.
I began therapy due to the overwhelming demands of adulthood, particularly as a new mother. Initially, the thought of being autistic shocked me; I was bewildered that those around me, including my parents and professionals, had overlooked my struggles. After receiving my diagnosis of autism and ADHD, I mourned for my younger self who felt like an outsider, never understanding why I found navigating the world so challenging.
Reflecting on my journey as a young adult, I recognize numerous traits indicative of autism that I overlooked. Here are some of those traits:
Section 1.1: Sleep Difficulties
Autistic individuals are significantly more prone to sleep disturbances compared to their neurotypical counterparts. Research indicates that sleep issues are twice as prevalent among autistic adults. Personally, I’ve always found bedtime routines ineffective. As a child, I would read until I fell asleep, and as an adult, I often scroll through social media until I pass out. Despite trying various methods, such as putting my phone away and using sleep masks, none have proven effective.
Section 1.2: Social Exhaustion
After attending social events like weddings or gatherings, I often find myself completely drained. Social interactions leave me exhausted, sometimes for days afterward. While friends and family thrive on socializing, I view these gatherings as overwhelming obligations. I prefer remote work and shy away from after-work outings, often choosing to retreat to my bed instead.
Section 1.3: Sensory Sensitivities
Many autistic adults experience various sensory processing challenges, leading to either sensory-seeking or sensory-avoiding behaviors. Some may find themselves overwhelmed by crowds, bright lights, or strong smells, while others may engage in sensory-seeking activities, such as fidgeting or lighting candles. It’s essential to understand that most autistic individuals exhibit a mix of both responses, fluctuating based on their mood and environment.
Chapter 2: Unique Perspectives and Observations
The first video titled "How do Autistic People Hide in Plain Sight?" delves into the subtle ways in which autistic individuals navigate social situations and conceal their struggles. It highlights the complexities of masking and the emotional toll it can take.
The second video, "Autism Hiding in Plain Sight (Masking or Camouflaging)," further explores the phenomenon of masking, shedding light on how autistic individuals often adapt their behavior to fit societal expectations.
Section 2.1: Creative Problem Solving
Autistic individuals often possess a unique ability to think creatively, providing innovative solutions to challenges. In many environments, this creativity is underappreciated. Personally, I find myself thinking outside the box, often offering fresh perspectives in discussions.
Section 2.2: A Sense of Justice
I struggle to remain silent in the face of injustice, which can greatly affect my mental well-being. Whether it's minor annoyances like queue-jumping or larger global issues, the absence of consequences for wrongdoing deeply disturbs me.
Section 2.3: Observational Skills
Although I may not be the most vocal person, my observational skills are keen. I tend to notice patterns and details that others might miss, which helps me in selecting thoughtful gifts based on even the smallest comments from friends.
Section 2.4: Comfort in Repetition
While many enjoy rewatching favorite films or shows, for neurodivergent individuals, this behavior often signals a need for familiarity and comfort. For me, shows like 'Friends' and 'Modern Family' provide a safe space where I feel connected.
Section 2.5: Resisting Peer Pressure
Throughout my life, I have never felt the pressure to conform to peer expectations. Even in social situations during my university years, I stood firm against drug use and alcohol consumption, often surprising those around me.
Section 2.6: Navigational Challenges
Navigating my surroundings can be daunting, and I often struggle with basic directional questions. This difficulty extends to reading maps and driving, leading to significant anxiety about getting lost.
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